Crazy

I started on my new job last week. Actually, I'm still in training which ends next week. The hours are crazy; the job, simple enough but the computer applications that I need to learn are a killer. I guess I will learn it well enough as I go along. Suffice it to say, I'm in a new industry.

My Carl called today. I miss him so much. He's finally got a buyer on the line for his house. What's even greater news is that he has another for his business. Seems like things are really looking up for this guy. He plans to come by for a visit in March, during Holy Week. I'm hoping I get some days off then, so I can really spend time with him. I really want to fall in love with this guy. I want to know him better. I feel respect for him and admiration as to how he's handled his life and his kids. Although things are going the way I planned it in my own life, I can't help but admit to myself that I want something more than just a career; that I'd rather have Carl than a career, truth to tell.

Oh, well.

Blogging hasn't been a top priority at the moment. I'm tired; I lack sleep; I need to study for my "final exam" at training. I fail this, I get fired. Tough. Really, it's just a matter of studying and I've just been too lazy. I need to do more if I want to fast track this career thing.

One thing that's kept me inspired is my Dale. He has been calling regularly, every chance he gets, as he's very busy earning more millions for his boss. And I'm complaining about passing my training.

At the moment, I really feel like I'm floating in the middle of nowhere. But at least, I see a light at the end of the tunnel and it's not a train. I can actually see options in front of me very clearly. I'm patting myself on the back as I write. This has got to eb the most interesting chapter in my life.