Mishap

I fell down the stairs this morning. Rolled down five concrete steps. In public. During rush hour. Chipped my wooden clogs which I bought for P1,700.

What I get for not paying attention. At least, I didn't sprain my ankle, or fall down a longer flight of stairs. I shudder to think how that could've turned out. I just ended up with scratches and a bruised knee. That was the first time I fell down the stairs. So that's how it feels: no control whatsover, things happening so fast my brain couldn't keep up. All I remember was trying to keep my knees together so I could maintain my poise, and ending up kneeling on the cold concrete floor. It felt like my mind just gave up and skipped that small series of events. There's a small void in there now, no memory at all of details. Now I understand how things can just be a blur. Interesting.

I've been training myself lately to go to bed an hour later than my usual time, in preparation for my second job. The results aren't very encouraging. I get tired easily during the day; I feel weak and get sick often. I need exercise but I'm just too darn lazy. I leave everything to vitamin supplements. And the fact that I've cut down on my rice intake isn't helping any.

I need to lose weight. I need to earn more. I need to take better care of myself...Delicate balancing act...Decisions, decisions...